I’m in a season of change. Some of that change has been drastic, and out of my control. My body shutting down. My inability to carry on with work. My sheer exhaustion and feelings of overwhelment at the smallest things in life.
Some changes I have been intentionally pursuing: the road back to health. Exercise. Being outdoors. Significant time alone. Intentional time with friends. Regular check ups with my doctor and counsellor.
Some changes I embrace. Others I resist. Yet other changes needed still feel too far away to be more than a wish at this point.
In much of my life these days, I’m leaning towards acceptance and understanding and turning away from striving to change and the hustle that accompanies it.
But what if something has to change, but feels out of your power to do so? What if the change you need is something you’ve attempted before and failed, or something that feels so far out of reach it feels pointless to even try? It feels so big, so overwhelming that you don’t even know how to start? Or maybe the opposite – instead of feeling huge it feels small, almost petty, and yet it remains an obstacle you can’t get around and you are ashamed to even admit to yourself what a struggle it is. Or it’s so huge, so shameful, so secret you couldn’t bear for anyone to know?
I’m piloting my brand-new, trademarked program that will be for release in the coming days…
I’m trying something out.
It’s called One. Small. Thing.
One Small Thing
How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.
How do you overcome a huge obstacle? One small thing at a time.
The idea? Even the smallest changes eventually add up to something big.
Gently. With grace. One small thing.
Little things add up to big things.
Victory in little battles are what win big wars.
And with every small step, with every tiny success, I find I believe in myself a little more.
With each victory, I move from despair to courage.
I feel like we need to pause there. I had to rewrite that sentence a few times. I want to say I move from despair to victory, but that’s not true. Victory still seems a long way off. But I do move. I move from wanting to give up to seeing hope in that small thing. Hope inspires courage. And courage grows to eventually become great victories.
I want the victory. But I’m only ready for the next small step.
And with each step forward, I’m moving away from the person I want to leave behind and towards the person I want to become.
No, you won’t find the hugely popular “before and after” transformation photos with this approach here; we’re in it for the long haul. But I think right now I’d rather years of slow progress than the highs and lows of success and failure on repeat.
2 Timothy 1:7 has been sticking with me as I go, one step at a time. It says this: For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.
I so often feel powerless, give in to self-despair and feel out of control. With every setback, I condemn myself until I’m terrified to even try again.
For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.
I cling to this verse as I right-size my expectations. I’m not jumping from broken to superhero… I’m taking this one step at a time. One small thing. With a spirit of power, love and self-discipline.
I do not need to fear. Not failure, what others will think of me, my own limitations or weaknesses or even shame. I have not been given a spirit of fear.
I have been given a spirit of power that allows me to choose.
I have been given a spirit of love that allows me to show grace: to myself and others.
I have been given a spirit of self-discipline that gives me freedom to choose what is best, not what is convenient, what is habitual, what is comforting or the path of least resistance. This spirit of self-control gives me freedom to choose that which is for me, not that which is against me, and find joy and satisfaction in doing so.
One small thing. In power, love and self-discipline. Loaded with gentleness and grace.
What’s your one small thing?